Today was so up and down, it was ridiculous.
I've been in a bit of a down mood since the accident, mainly because of all my savings basically going down the drain.pebblegosling
, Japan is now looking very very unlikely. I'm sorry, and if I'm being honest that's what I'm most upset about. It's just like me to not realise just how much I want something until the chance is ripped away from me. I'm not even going to do any more calculations, because it'll just depress me.
Anyway, Dad (who has been amazing
about this whole thing <3) let me take his car to uni (THANK GOD) today, and let me just say it is SO strange driving a 4-wheel-drive after my tiny little corolla. Goodness. It felt like a monster, even though it's only a small 4WD, as they go. Missing my music already, that's what keeps me sane driving that far every day.
So I get to uni, sit through English and can't focus at all, finally wake up for Indo. All normal, all fine, until one girl is getting her words muddled up and Bu Y decides to start singing. Why? No freaking clue.
'Jumat, Jumat, ada pesta pada hari Jumat' ... Friday. IN INDONESIAN. Best. Lecturer. Ever. Needless to say, after that I could NOT focus. Between laughing that my class ran with it (I am so ashamed that I will now never again confuse the words for tomorrow and yesterday - 'kemarin adalah Kamis' because of this damn song) or just getting the giggles whenever I thought of her singing it.
... It's been stuck in my head. All day.
Then it was another fairly boring music lecture, a break for lunch, and then I hung out with thalia03 before/after our English tute.
In which I remembered that I have a massive thing for intelligence in guys. A guy in my class did his presentation, and he spoke really ridiculously well and was so passionate about the poetry that he was talking about - he was cute too. I was sitting there and just went 'whoa okay you just got about 10 times more attractive to me'
Not that I showed that outwardly (although I think our tutor thought that, more on that in a second).
The poem we were studying was about a graveyard (fail!student, don't remember the name) and someone made a comment like 'Rameses believed that you aren't truly dead until no one remembers who you are'. All I could think of was Dumbledore, and said as much to thalia03. We both made exaggerated gestures with our hands over our heart and muttering, and I caught our tutor sending a confused look our way. Amusing.
I have to go work now, but one last thing:
I PUT MY NAME DOWN FOR SPRING AWAKENING. The orchestra. The director was so excited when I said I played violin, and was a second year music student and ahhhh I'm so pumped! And daunted, because I'll be the only violin if I do it. But mostly excited. I checked the dates, and it's after all of my actual orchestra stuff is finished so there won't be any clashes with that. WHEEEE.
That took the edge off my crappy mood, so <3