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Oh man, I'd forgotten how much I love his music videos...
He imitates Justin Bieber, excuse my while I go double up with laughter.


So, hey, guys. I am alive, and I am (tentatively) back to livejournal. I'm still not sure how often I will actually post, but this is me promising to try. I've missed you all.

A lot can happen in 2 months... )
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 She apparently randomly speaks in third person.

Real life? )


Lauren's music 101 )
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 Just got home from my cousin's 21st (she was one of my two best friends growing up) and it was a pretty good party! I got to spend it with my other childhood best friend - great to catch up. It's her 21st tomorrow night, so the roles will be reversed a little.

It was a famous-musician themed party, so I went as Lily Allen, mostly because I look a little similar and her clothes are easy to imitate. I'll try to remember to post a photo because a couple of people wanted to see!

I'm going to dye my hair darker tomorrow - mostly because I am going as Bellatrix Lestrange to the midnight release of the last Harry Potter movie - but it might be nice for a change so I'll do it before the party tomorrow night =D

It was actually really good to catch E up with my love life (or lack thereof) as I really haven't spoken to her properly since everything with D happened. So many people we know who are our age are getting married and it kind of freaks us out. She's in a long-term, serious relationship and her bf is much more serious about everything than she is. It makes me laugh, she's told him that he's not even allowed to ask her to marry him until she's 23 XD
Her observation about my love life that the guys who would suit me will always be too shy to approach me was pretty accurate I think. Damn it. *laughs* Guess I'll just have to suddenly get brave somehow... 

This past week has been pretty awesome, I must say. Staying up late, sleeping in, no work, heaps of shopping (most of my birthday money is gone) and just chilling. It's been good - but now I'm ready to go out and do things again. Bring on the socialising :D

Up next in the life of Lauren: HP midnight session with a fair few friends, staying over at snuggle_monster's at some point, back to work, practice, and a couple more parties. Possibly. Ooh and investing in a viola and teaching myself to play properly.

Night all!
Rdm

Contrast

Jul. 3rd, 2011 09:46 pm
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 Well, I'm not sure that the past few days could have been more different.

Friday was my uncle's funeral, which I won't say too much about but it was a good service, and very appropriate to him. Which is all anyone can hope for really. I love my family to pieces, I mean, who else could have a funeral that includes a rewrite of 'Long Way To The Top' as sung by his siblings and be so irreverent... but still be so meaningful.
I worked out early on that I was going to be the one that held myself together the best - and sure enough I was. I made it through with only a few tears shed in the final song, whereas the rest of my family were pretty much crying constantly. *shakes head* I don't know where I pull that from, I always feel like I cry at everything. I've had two separate people tell me that this doesn't surprise them in the slightest, and I guess it makes sense but it still felt weird.
Of course, heading to work on Saturday morning Will I? from Rent came up on shuffle and I lost it. I hadn't had enough sleep, I was emotionally drained, and ended up crying pretty much the rest of the way to work. Pretty telling huh XD

Saturday was my 21st, with masses of people. Mostly family (from Mum's side - ie all the people who are mourning my uncle) so I thought it was going to be interesting. True to form, no one else would have even realised there was anything wrong - we certainly do know how to have a good time. Speaking of, there were heaps of family members that I hadn't seen in years and years so it was great to chat for a while, even if it was only for small amounts of time.

I got home from work, got massively behind my planned schedule, and then roped Ame into helping me out with decorations as well as doing my make-up (she did an amazing job <3).
The food from the caterers was really good, as were the slices Mum and I spent all week baking if I do say so myself. I took heaps of photos, so I will try to remember to post one later on!

I got so many lovely presents, so much utterly gorgeous jewellery (including two pairs of real diamond earrings which made me flail both times THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU) and a fair bit of cash and vouchers which I am plotting how to spend now. I can finally buy a few things off my wishlists that I've had going since the start of the year. Everyone was so generous, I was a little overwhelmed.
Said wishlists are also very telling about me, I think almost every single item has something to do with music. Except the Tamora Pierce books that my brother is giving me money for (enough for an entire series fdjhksfvhfref WHY SO AWESOME?!)

I have to say, I got off pretty easily with the speeches - pebblegosling was skyping in, and she would have spoken up if she was there - and I daresay she would have embarrassed me more than my parents did. My brother made a really cute speech though.
Although, they did show this video of me singing when I was about 5 years old. I was so not in tune it made me cringe. At least I was cute... XD
Actually the most mortifying moment was completely unintentional on my Mum's part - I wanted the ground to swallow me because I know what dirty minds my friends have. My brother was doubled over he was laughing that hard... My mum was talking about how she'd at least taught me 'how to open her mouth wide' or something like that. My god. I'll leave that there now...

Today I got up at 10:30 to see those who'd stayed over off, stayed on tumblr and bookmarking fic for later, went back to bed for 3 hours despite my brother drumming, finally decided to get up, read said fic, went out for dinner with the work crowd, and now I'm back here planning on starting a TV show marathon - Doctor Who, Secret Diary of a Call Girl or Downton Abbey, I haven't quite decided yet. Pretty perfect come-down, I must say.

Bye for now!
Rdm
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 I know I say it all the time, but I have the most incredible friends anyone could ask for.

Despite everything else that's gone on this week, my day yesterday was almost perfect.

snuggle_monster, harpisan, sine_animo, Ame came with me on a picnic to Hanging Rock (yes, same as in the book/movie) to celebrate my birthday. Lots of food, ridiculously silly conversation (not sure how every single comment we made turned into a sexual innuendo/about beastiality of all things) and gorgeous surrounds. As well as epic photos and documentary-style footage of our walk up to the rock.

Of course, snuggle_monster pretty much stole the whole show. At one point, she and sine_animo vanished to 'go and get another part' of my present (the first part being seriously AMAZING headphones). As soon as I spotted them coming back, I *knew* precisely what she was doing. I could see the blue wayfarers, the plaid flannel shirt, the jeans, the converse... Yep. She dressed up as Darren Criss, complete with bazouki to play and sing for me. I just stared at her and couldn't decide whether to laugh at her or want to curl up in a ball in embarrassment. For all her protesting, she has a gorgeous voice when she sings properly - something I'd never actually heard her do before.


Of course, she managed to pick up on exactly when I started tearing up - and went back to being silly. I wanted to shake her at that point for ruining the moment XD

I love you all.
Rdm

PS. harpisan made me a really pretty friendship bracelet thingy, but I am too unco to tie it on properly. I need to remedy that soon.
PPS. These headphones are so amazing I can't decide what to listen to next, thank you thank you thank you to snuggle_monster, sine_animo and thalia03
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 I really love this song, but somehow I always forget about it. I should download it, really.

In a related note, I really need to remember the line in my title. If I'm being honest, I am struggling to hold myself together at the moment. My good old distraction techniques work for the most part, but when I actually think about some of the stuff that's going on around me I just get really overwhelmed and upset. Plus, I had a flashback last night to my days at my old school because of a line in a fanfic I read (I never know what will get to me) and so that really doesn't help.

I don't really know what else to say about my week, except that it has been ridiculously up and down at best. snuggle_monster and I had an awesome musical night at my place, even if the musical part of that night was cut rather short. Oh well, we still managed to talk until 5am. Skill, we have them.

I then proceeded to sleep through my alarm, and got pissed off at myself for a number of reasons, and kind of exploded.
snuggle_monster, I'm sorry. I actually just needed to vent, and cry, and your logical and sensible arguments went completely unheeded and I apologise if I bit your head off unreasonably. I scare myself when I get like that, because I literally just don't comprehend reason - instead I am upset for the sake of being upset. Thank goodness I don't get like that often.

I forget that I'm not expected to know what to do at all times.

Anyway, enough of that. I have so much to do but I can hardly get myself to start (let alone finish) anything, what else is new... Procrastination you suck. I just know I'm going to end up winging my Indo oral exam, I just know it. I do have English notes, I just have to look up some key words and I do have all of tomorrow. Panic hasn't set in yet because of that.
I need to practice desperately. Oh, and my violin decided that last night was a brilliant time to start buzzing, 3 weeks out from my exam. Great.
I also have a list of random errands a mile long - most of which involve cash and so have been put 'on hold' as such until I get paid this week. Better be on time of I will throw something. I'm pretty sure I'll be flat broke in about a week or so. Fun times.

OH! In better news, I have my car back!! =D
Freedom is sweet. I won't be taking it for granted again for a while. and driving like a grandma
My Dad is also amazing, and I don't have to pay him back for anything until I get a full time job. So I owe a hell of a lot of money, but it's alright for now.

One last thing, I am turning 21 in less than a month. When did that happen?
My parents have decided that I should have a big party (I was going to go with smaller events, but hey i'm not complaining if they're paying...) so I'm currently trying to work out logistics. Just another method of procrastination.

I really should go now. Really really.
So. Bye. *waves*
Rdm
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Semester 1: complete!
Well, classes anyway. It's enough for me.

Proper update! )

Phew! I think that's all the real life updating I wanted to do. Now, there are a couple of things I want to share.

Random ridiculousness brought to you by myself, my friends and my mother )
 
The beauty of words )

I think that's more than enough from me, now. I'd better go pack!
Rdm
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 Listening to the Glee version of For Good, and sobbing. It's amazing, and this song is one of my favourites. Also a lot of memories I associate with it. <3

So, I haven't posted in a few days, I think, but it feels like a long time.
This week has pretty much consisted of me working on assignments, procrastinating said assignments, the orchestra concert (which went really really well - we pulled off Firebird!!) getting good at driving Dad's car, and just being ridiculously busy.

I am so glad I have Thursday off, even if I wasn't as productive as I could have been. No practice, but I am finally on top of these assignments. One more to do! ... Then I need to start actually studying.

Tonight, I went to see the student theatre version of 'The Witches' at uni - IT WAS SO AWESOME. Creepy as all hell. As it should be. Love.
It was so funny, while I was there I ran into B, a friend from gamelan last year - who was sitting with a friend of snuggle_monster's that I met at the sleepover a few weeks ago. It took me a while to recognise her, just because I didn't expect them to be sitting together. So random. It was good though, I went on my own so at least I had someone to chat to during interval.

I really want to reread the book now.

... I thought i had more to say. Oh well, tis bedtime! Night!
Rdm
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 And then it comes crashing down. Almost literally.

I had a couple of good days where I finally was feeling okay about everything, and on top of my work, and then I managed to get in another car accident that was my fault. Misjudged stopping distance in the rain... Oh and it was on a major freeway, so police got called and I have a ticket for 'following too close'. Even though they actually weren't around to see if I was, it's just assumed. Gah. I don't need this. I feel so guilty too, as it was the fricking new car that my parents got me. *headdesk*

I could brush one incident like that off, but now my confidence on the road has been shaken. I just... I haven't been so afraid of driving since I was a petrified 16-year-old learner.
I'm amazed my Dad still lent me his car today... I wouldn't lend my car to me.

So easy to say getting up for my 8am lecture on 5 hours sleep was a struggle. Thankfully the day (kind of) improved from there.
My Indo teacher is all kinds of amazing. We had an assignment due today, which I emailed at like 1am, and in our 9am class she had it back, with suggestions, and told me to take a couple more days and add some stuff in. Just, wow.
Conducting was okay, although I kept zoning out. Oops.
Then I met up with thalia03 and we just talked about anything and everything, I ranted about cars and money and stress, and we laughed about all the random connections we have.
Then it was English. Ooh boy that tute was intense. We're studying Hamlet, and somehow the discussion hit too close to home, talking about depression. I was on edge, and getting a bit upset when I was talking at one point, and then got even more so when the tutor made a flippant comment that I took a lot of offense at. I was proud of myself, because I went up to him after class and politely pointed out that he should be more careful of how he says things like that because you just don't know what will trigger people. I know he didn't mean it the way he said it, and he understood and was really good about me pointing it out.
Oh, and another girl who barely knows me waited for me outside just to check that I was alright. thalia03 and I just about melted into a puddle. So sweet.

Speaking of, I am so happy to be getting to know you better, thalia03. Thank you so much for staying with me today, I really needed it.

I'm feeling pretty okay now, I don't have to take public transport to rehearsal tomorrow which is a relief, as it would have taken me 2 hours to do so - I can sleep in a bit now. Which I also desperately need. Now I am off to do a little study and just chill for a while.

Rdm

PS. I also had my orchestral assessment today, which went better than I expected but I'm still not sure if I'll have done well enough to pass first go.
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I love that song so much. 

This week has been decidedly weird. There's all the drama with my car, assignments and everything - so naturally I ended up a bit stressed and strung out. A meltdown of sorts was inevitable... but I nearly made it to mid-semester break.
Yesterday I just lost it, because Ame and I had worked hard on our speech for Indo on Sunday, and thought we were good to go. Then, we read the unit guide and got really confused - so, we went and saw our teacher. Who confused us more, and I was so pissed and confused and stressed that we hadn't done it right and just ugh. I panicked, and got really upset - I hadn't done any practice then either, so I was worried about my lesson, and the fact that I had to go to work. We ended up skipping my second Indo class and I went and used the music room near her flat (she lives on campus) to play and make myself feel better. She also gives the most amazing massages, seriously I felt like I could move my shoulders properly for the first time in a long while. <3 Thank you.

Then, I get home last night and was told that one of my great-uncles has passed away. I'm sad, but more because I'm struggling to remember him. It's strange to think that had it been the same relation on my mum's side, I'd be devastated but because it's on Dad's and we really don't see them much I'm not. Sending my love out to the family though.

And that brings me to now. Still procrastinating fixing this speech and doing the powerpoint (even though it's tomorrow eek) and wondering just where time goes on Tuesday mornings. I'll work it out, but for now I'll leave this here.
Rdm

PS. It sounds strange because I do see them a bit, but I miss my friends. As in, I miss spending decent amounts of time just hanging out. 
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Today was so up and down, it was ridiculous.

I've been in a bit of a down mood since the accident, mainly because of all my savings basically going down the drain.
[livejournal.com profile] pebblegosling , Japan is now looking very very unlikely. I'm sorry, and if I'm being honest that's what I'm most upset about. It's just like me to not realise just how much I want something until the chance is ripped away from me. I'm not even going to do any more calculations, because it'll just depress me.

Anyway, Dad (who has been amazing about this whole thing <3) let me take his car to uni (THANK GOD) today, and let me just say it is SO strange driving a 4-wheel-drive after my tiny little corolla. Goodness. It felt like a monster, even though it's only a small 4WD, as they go. Missing my music already, that's what keeps me sane driving that far every day.

So I get to uni, sit through English and can't focus at all, finally wake up for Indo. All normal, all fine, until one girl is getting her words muddled up and Bu Y decides to start singing. Why? No freaking clue.
'Jumat, Jumat, ada pesta pada hari Jumat' ... Friday. IN INDONESIAN. Best. Lecturer. Ever. Needless to say, after that I could NOT focus. Between laughing that my class ran with it (I am so ashamed that I will now never again confuse the words for tomorrow and yesterday - 'kemarin adalah Kamis' because of this damn song) or just getting the giggles whenever I thought of her singing it.

... It's been stuck in my head. All day.

Then it was another fairly boring music lecture, a break for lunch, and then I hung out with thalia03 before/after our English tute.
In which I remembered that I have a massive thing for intelligence in guys. A guy in my class did his presentation, and he spoke really ridiculously well and was so passionate about the poetry that he was talking about - he was cute too. I was sitting there and just went 'whoa okay you just got about 10 times more attractive to me'
Not that I showed that outwardly (although I think our tutor thought that, more on that in a second).
The poem we were studying was about a graveyard (fail!student, don't remember the name) and someone made a comment like 'Rameses believed that you aren't truly dead until no one remembers who you are'. All I could think of was Dumbledore, and said as much to thalia03. We both made exaggerated gestures with our hands over our heart and muttering, and I caught our tutor sending a confused look our way. Amusing.

I have to go work now, but one last thing:
I PUT MY NAME DOWN FOR SPRING AWAKENING. The orchestra. The director was so excited when I said I played violin, and was a second year music student and ahhhh I'm so pumped! And daunted, because I'll be the only violin if I do it. But mostly excited. I checked the dates, and it's after all of my actual orchestra stuff is finished so there won't be any clashes with that. WHEEEE.

That took the edge off my crappy mood, so <3
Rdm

Ugh.

Apr. 13th, 2011 08:01 pm
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It's weird how the human body/mind reacts to certain things.

Today I ran into the back of another car, and boy did it scare the crap out of me. I'm perfectly okay, so don't you all fret. I was stopped in traffic, and we started moving, and then I zoned out for a second and bang. I feel like such an idiot right now. Luckily the guy whose car I ran into was really nice, and we just exchanged details and he was thinking straight whereas I really wasn't.
I'm still a little shaken up, even though this happened in the middle of the day, which is what the first line is referring to. Mostly now I'm just stressed because I rely on my car a LOT. Like, uni on Friday - I think I can use my brother's car, but the last thing I want to do right now is borrow someone else's car. OR for work on Saturday, what do I do about that? And when the hell am I going to find the time to take my car to get quotes for repairs and UGH.

Not to mention that it was completely my fault, so I will have to pay for the damage. *headdesk*

I was actually having a really good morning too. Indo was fun, my lesson was actually really good - goes to show that a little good practice > lots of dodgy practice. I also headed into the city to study with sine_animo for a while, which helped cheer me up a bit even if we didn't really talk much.
Thank goodness I have no plans and no obligations tomorrow though.

Rdm
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 I am happy to report that I am feeling much much better after a couple of decent night’s sleep (damn it Dad, why must you be right?! XD) Between yesterday’s study session (which was fun, after all yay!) and my productivity today I am not feeling quite so worn down.
True, I still have a lot left to do – but I’ve finished all my homework tasks for the week, and so can focus on all these pesky assignments. I also managed to get in about 2 hours of really good practice in so I am really happy with myself atm.

Study and real life )
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 I really need to stop procrastinating. But it's too much fun XD

Ah, Chris Colfer amuses me. His responses in this interview are awesome.

Some snippets:
Q: “Do you think you’ll ever do a voice over for an animated feature? Cause I think you have the most amazing voice to do one.”
A: Oh yes! Can I be a Sea Monkey in Finding Nemo 2?SEAMONKEY. LOL XD

He also played Chip in a production of Beauty and the Beast - that would have been freaking adorable.

Q: “What’s your favorite gift from a fan?”
A: It would be impossible to choose one, but I recently got a handmade stuffed Llama holding a Golden Globe and thought it was the cutest thing I had ever seen.
Um. I want one.

A week's worth of reality... )
 
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Oh, Valentine's Day - you are ridiculous. Yep. Also known as Single's Awareness Day. Or just plain old February 14th. You have the cute couples, the people who get really lonely, and then people who just can't seem to catch a break - or take a hint. Most of this is actually nothing to do with me, it was just another day to me today. Got up, bummed around, taught for 4.5 hours straight with no break, drove home and sat here on my computer.
I am insanely surprised that my brother's girlfriend isn't here. Or he isn't there. 

I've spent the past few days finally acknowledging that uni starts back soon. Yesterday I managed to clear out my desk drawers (all but one, which I will try to do tonight) and find another place to put all the old uni work. I finally put everything away from my trip, organised/cleaned my bathroom cupboard, reorganised all my folders on my computer.
Then I rewatched the two Glee eps 'with' my new Glee-obsessed friend (WHO I MIGHT MEET ON THURSDAY WHEEEEE) via fb chat. Twas hilarious and amusing. Rewatching it though just reminded me of how much I actually relate to Kurt. Insane, huh? Very straight female who doesn't care about fashion, doesn't have a great voice relates to Kurt Hummel more than any other character on Glee. *chuckles* I mean, just the way he reacts to things, the story arcs sometimes, in the Valentine's Day Ep it was the way he told Blaine about thinking it was him he was going to ask out. Not in so many words, but I can definitely understand the whole 'I'm just going to spit it out now and hope for the best'.

I'm planning on going in to uni tomorrow to buy books (English novels if nothing else, I need to start reading them now so when I have assignments due it doesn't suck up my time) and to pick up my music for placement auditions for ensembles. 
I'm sure there was more I was going to say. Oh well. Have some more pictures. Because I can, Damn it.
Rdm



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 Wow guys, the response to my last post was incredible! Thank you!
<3

I've actually been meaning to post an actual update for about a week now, but then real life actually did get in the way. A lot of my time has been taken up by this production, but I now have a couple of days off which is nice. I ended up going to see the New Years Eve fireworks with pebblegosling, wolfielove, a_new_divide and a couple of other friends, which was great fun. Very exciting, as I had never brought in the new year in the city before. So many people! Can totally understand why we've never been now, Mum hates crowds.

The randomness that is my life. Again. )

And now - onto the meme! Which I have been neglecting, mainly because this part of it is difficult for me. I am the sort of person who traces each event in my life to who I am now. Anything that I would change, would change who I am now dramatically, and honestly, I like where I am in life right now.

Six things )

And that's it for today! I have a fair few plans for February, but almost none for the next few weeks - which is a nice change of pace. I won't get any extra shifts at work, January is dead, so I think I'll sit at home, watch movies, catch up with harpisan (hopefully!) organise my music to go onto the ipod I just bought off snuggle_monster, fixing up my lj tags (going to take me a while...), go shopping because I can, and the like.
Rdm
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 Yesterday and today I have been at work for normal people hours. Work is insane at the moment because of Christmas, but even when it's that busy it reminds me why I like that I'm headed into a profession which has no such standard hours. Much more interesting.

Having said that, there are a couple of funny moments I want to share from today. The first was a conversation that went as follows (well, in my ears anyway)
Guy: Do you have quickies?
Me: *thinks: EXCUSE ME?* Sorry, what did you say?
Guy: Do you have Quick-eze here, for indigestion.
Me: *stifles a laugh* Oh, of course. Over here.

The other was that a total pain in the arse customer ended up yelling at a colleague for something that she could do nothing about ... and then another customer (who I happen to know because she taught the hip hop class I did in year 9, ... oh shut up) totally ripped into her saying stuff like 'if you had come in 3 weeks ago they would have been able to help you, the staff are lovely here and don't deserve people like you making their life difficult' or something to that effect. It was all I could do to not to grin like an idiot.

Eight Things )
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 It's been a weird couple of days.

Actual update! )
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So, I totally am not doing the same thing [livejournal.com profile] pebblegosling  just did. Nup.
Ok ok fine so I am. For anyone who likes Glee/Madonna go watch the video she just posted. NOW. Actually, scratch that. EVERYONE GO WATCH IT.
Chris Colfer = <3
Who the hell knew he could belt lower register? Not me. I've listened to that clip 4 times in a row now, and I don't even like the freaking song. That's how awesome he is.

Awesome voices, and a better couple of days )

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