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'But the search ends here, where the night is totally clear'
So. It's late, and I probably should be in bed as I am rather tired from a really long drive home (stupid roadworks) - but tonight I just really wanted to post.
I'm not sure how I'll get this into words, but I'm sure going to try.
Tonight, I went to the youth Bible study group that is a part of my friend N's church. It's like something has been switched back on - suddenly, I feel home again among people of my faith. It's incredible how these things work out. I can't really explain it, it is just a feeling I get when I'm with them. They are awesome, and friendly, and I just fit there. It's not just getting the giggles over catching awkward-seeming parts of conversation, or over someone trying to entwine their arms and clap (don't ask XD) or just finding a bit about these people that makes me feel like this. When we actually started the serious part of the evening - I felt comfortable to speak up. And having what I actually say challenged, in the most supportive environment possible, was refreshing. It sounds strange, but it can be too easy to slip into having what I say about my faith just accepted and not discussed. This kind of discussion really is what I need to grow as a person.
I hadn't realised how much I've been missing this. I knew I missed how my old church used to be, but sitting there tonight, listening, talking, showed me just how much I need it. It's funny how things work out sometimes.
On another note, I have finished all but one easy short piece of work for this week. It's the first time in a week or so that I've felt on top of things. Consequently, I actually feel relaxed and content for the first time in a while. As opposed to spurts of happiness followed by stress.
And now, I say goodnight!
Rdm
I'm not sure how I'll get this into words, but I'm sure going to try.
Tonight, I went to the youth Bible study group that is a part of my friend N's church. It's like something has been switched back on - suddenly, I feel home again among people of my faith. It's incredible how these things work out. I can't really explain it, it is just a feeling I get when I'm with them. They are awesome, and friendly, and I just fit there. It's not just getting the giggles over catching awkward-seeming parts of conversation, or over someone trying to entwine their arms and clap (don't ask XD) or just finding a bit about these people that makes me feel like this. When we actually started the serious part of the evening - I felt comfortable to speak up. And having what I actually say challenged, in the most supportive environment possible, was refreshing. It sounds strange, but it can be too easy to slip into having what I say about my faith just accepted and not discussed. This kind of discussion really is what I need to grow as a person.
I hadn't realised how much I've been missing this. I knew I missed how my old church used to be, but sitting there tonight, listening, talking, showed me just how much I need it. It's funny how things work out sometimes.
On another note, I have finished all but one easy short piece of work for this week. It's the first time in a week or so that I've felt on top of things. Consequently, I actually feel relaxed and content for the first time in a while. As opposed to spurts of happiness followed by stress.
And now, I say goodnight!
Rdm
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It's been a while since I've felt I really fit somewhere like this.
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It is something that I can forget pretty easily.
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(am tired thus boring comment..sorry)
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It's ok - not really a blog that I expected much response to. :P (although I did)
:)
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