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rdm_ation ([personal profile] rdm_ation) wrote2010-03-14 12:30 am
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'But the search ends here, where the night is totally clear'

So. It's late, and I probably should be in bed as I am rather tired from a really long drive home (stupid roadworks) - but tonight I just really wanted to post.
I'm not sure how I'll get this into words, but I'm sure going to try.

Tonight, I went to the youth Bible study group that is a part of my friend N's church. It's like something has been switched back on - suddenly, I feel home again among people of my faith. It's incredible how these things work out. I can't really explain it, it is just a feeling I get when I'm with them. They are awesome, and friendly, and I just fit there. It's not just getting the giggles over catching awkward-seeming parts of conversation, or over someone trying to entwine their arms and clap (don't ask XD) or just finding a bit about these people that makes me feel like this. When we actually started the serious part of the evening - I felt comfortable to speak up. And having what I actually say challenged, in the most supportive environment possible, was refreshing. It sounds strange, but it can be too easy to slip into having what I say about my faith just accepted and not discussed. This kind of discussion really is what I need to grow as a person.
I hadn't realised how much I've been missing this. I knew I missed how my old church used to be, but sitting there tonight, listening, talking, showed me just how much I need it. It's funny how things work out sometimes.

On another note, I have finished all but one easy short piece of work for this week. It's the first time in a week or so that I've felt on top of things. Consequently, I actually feel relaxed and content for the first time in a while. As opposed to spurts of happiness followed by stress.

And now, I say goodnight!
Rdm

[identity profile] luna-glass-wall.livejournal.com 2010-03-13 07:16 pm (UTC)(link)
^.^ I'm glad to hear you're fitting into a faith group! I love to hear about people enjoying their religion. Hopefully it will help you continue to grow spiritually. God bless!

[identity profile] rdm-ation.livejournal.com 2010-03-14 01:10 am (UTC)(link)
Thank you :)
It's been a while since I've felt I really fit somewhere like this.

[identity profile] everlastingway.livejournal.com 2010-03-13 09:03 pm (UTC)(link)
I think I know you feel. My friends and I have a Bible study/discussion group and I love hearing from other people who can relate to what I'm saying and talk about their own ideas. It is so easy for me to forget that there are things about God I can learn from others that I wouldn't have discovered on my own. I'm glad you've found a group like this!

[identity profile] rdm-ation.livejournal.com 2010-03-14 01:11 am (UTC)(link)
Thanks. :)
It is something that I can forget pretty easily.

[identity profile] pebblegosling.livejournal.com 2010-03-14 02:26 am (UTC)(link)
<3 Yay for you.
(am tired thus boring comment..sorry)

[identity profile] rdm-ation.livejournal.com 2010-03-14 02:28 am (UTC)(link)
*chuckles*
It's ok - not really a blog that I expected much response to. :P (although I did)

:)

[identity profile] unlucky-clover.livejournal.com 2010-03-14 08:32 am (UTC)(link)
rediscovering spirituality makes me feels better too! :)