rdm_ation

Oh man, I'd forgotten how much I love his music videos...
He imitates Justin Bieber, excuse my while I go double up with laughter.


So, hey, guys. I am alive, and I am (tentatively) back to livejournal. I'm still not sure how often I will actually post, but this is me promising to try. I've missed you all.

( A lot can happen in 2 months... )

 Well, I'm not sure that the past few days could have been more different.

Friday was my uncle's funeral, which I won't say too much about but it was a good service, and very appropriate to him. Which is all anyone can hope for really. I love my family to pieces, I mean, who else could have a funeral that includes a rewrite of 'Long Way To The Top' as sung by his siblings and be so irreverent... but still be so meaningful.
I worked out early on that I was going to be the one that held myself together the best - and sure enough I was. I made it through with only a few tears shed in the final song, whereas the rest of my family were pretty much crying constantly. *shakes head* I don't know where I pull that from, I always feel like I cry at everything. I've had two separate people tell me that this doesn't surprise them in the slightest, and I guess it makes sense but it still felt weird.
Of course, heading to work on Saturday morning Will I? from Rent came up on shuffle and I lost it. I hadn't had enough sleep, I was emotionally drained, and ended up crying pretty much the rest of the way to work. Pretty telling huh XD

Saturday was my 21st, with masses of people. Mostly family (from Mum's side - ie all the people who are mourning my uncle) so I thought it was going to be interesting. True to form, no one else would have even realised there was anything wrong - we certainly do know how to have a good time. Speaking of, there were heaps of family members that I hadn't seen in years and years so it was great to chat for a while, even if it was only for small amounts of time.

I got home from work, got massively behind my planned schedule, and then roped Ame into helping me out with decorations as well as doing my make-up (she did an amazing job <3).
The food from the caterers was really good, as were the slices Mum and I spent all week baking if I do say so myself. I took heaps of photos, so I will try to remember to post one later on!

I got so many lovely presents, so much utterly gorgeous jewellery (including two pairs of real diamond earrings which made me flail both times THANK YOU THANK YOU THANK YOU) and a fair bit of cash and vouchers which I am plotting how to spend now. I can finally buy a few things off my wishlists that I've had going since the start of the year. Everyone was so generous, I was a little overwhelmed.
Said wishlists are also very telling about me, I think almost every single item has something to do with music. Except the Tamora Pierce books that my brother is giving me money for (enough for an entire series fdjhksfvhfref WHY SO AWESOME?!)

I have to say, I got off pretty easily with the speeches - pebblegosling was skyping in, and she would have spoken up if she was there - and I daresay she would have embarrassed me more than my parents did. My brother made a really cute speech though.
Although, they did show this video of me singing when I was about 5 years old. I was so not in tune it made me cringe. At least I was cute... XD
Actually the most mortifying moment was completely unintentional on my Mum's part - I wanted the ground to swallow me because I know what dirty minds my friends have. My brother was doubled over he was laughing that hard... My mum was talking about how she'd at least taught me 'how to open her mouth wide' or something like that. My god. I'll leave that there now...

Today I got up at 10:30 to see those who'd stayed over off, stayed on tumblr and bookmarking fic for later, went back to bed for 3 hours despite my brother drumming, finally decided to get up, read said fic, went out for dinner with the work crowd, and now I'm back here planning on starting a TV show marathon - Doctor Who, Secret Diary of a Call Girl or Downton Abbey, I haven't quite decided yet. Pretty perfect come-down, I must say.

Bye for now!
Rdm

 This weekend was awesome. I went on a 'camp' with N's church group, and it was so lovely just to be able to stop and relax for a day.
I did feel a bit anti-social, because I got there and had no energy so I chilled with my phone's slow internet and my Glee playlist on my ipod, but then I got dragged into a hilarious game called 'last word' that had us all in hysterics. And ate copious amounts of amazing food, and general silliness.
I got home, and have just been messing around here.

I did have a couple of moments on the weekend that I want to share though. It was a bit strange to be back in a Bible study kind of thing after a year of struggling with my faith and not going to church - but I couldn't have asked for better people to go back to it with. If/when I move over that side of town, I will definitely be going to church there. They feel like home.
In a related note, 'Steer' by Missy Higgins was played while a reflection time was happening, and I freaked out. You see, the very first time I went to this group (they call it 'Deeper') this song came on my ipod on the way home and I was struck with the utter relevance it had to how I felt with them, that I had once again found a spiritual home so to speak. For it to randomly be the song played today? Mind-blowing.


Just one more thing to say. I find the most wonderful things on tumblr. This is a song I love, covered by a different artist that I adore - and that sings in a pretty different genre. Somehow it works. Love her <3


That's all from me tonight!
Happy, relaxed Lauren is happy.
Rdm

 I totally wasn't going to let myself get sucked into this. Nup. But I am hopeless, and so here I am - after pebblegosling 's post about Myers-Briggs personality typing bugbeary  informed me of my type. I am in the middle of reading descriptions and I have to say, for someone who's never met me she's done better at typing me than any quiz ever has. Of course, there are some things that don't sit right with me, but I'm so hard to type generally that I'm just going to post the lines that rang so true and had me going 'omg omg omg'.

They have thinner psychological boundaries than most, and are at risk for being hurt or even abused by less sensitive people. ENFJs often take on more of the burdens of others than they can bear.
- Oh man, that last bit. 

In the sway of this rational function, these folks are predisposed to closure in matters pertaining to people, and especially on behalf of their beloved.

ENFJs are blessed through introverted intuition with clarity of perception in the inner, unconscious world.
Extraverted Feeling rules the ENFJ's psyche. In the sway of this rational function, these folks are predisposed to closure in matters pertaining to people, and especially on behalf of their beloved. As extraverts, their contacts are wide ranging. Face-to-face relationships are intense, personable and warm, though they may be so infrequently achieved that intimate friendships are rare.
- that very last bit not quite so much, but still relevant.

(those are all from here)

ENFJ's main interest in life is giving love, support, and a good time to other people. They are focused on understanding, supporting, and encouraging others.

They are fun to be with, and truly understand and love people. They are typically very straight-forward and honest.
- ummm

ENFJs have a special gift with people, and are basically happy people when they can use that gift to help others. They get their best satisfaction from serving others. Their genuine interest in Humankind and their exceptional intuitive awareness of people makes them able to draw out even the most reserved individuals.

ENFJs have a strong need for close, intimate relationships, and will put forth a lot of effort in creating and maintaining these relationships. They're very loyal and trustworthy once involved in a relationship.
Last passage, it's long, but if you do know me read it and you'll know why it's freaking me out right now. Fuuuu

ENFJ's are so externally focused that it's especially important for them to spend time alone. This can be difficult for some ENFJs, because they have the tendency to be hard on themselves and turn to dark thoughts when alone. Consequently, ENFJs might avoid being alone, and fill their lives with activities involving other people. ENFJs tend to define their life's direction and priorities according to other people's needs, and may not be aware of their own needs. It's natural to their personality type that they will tend to place other people's needs above their own, but they need to stay aware of their own needs so that they don't sacrifice themselves in their drive to help others.

(from here)

I'm just a little bit impressed with Janna's typing skills right now, not going to lie.
I'll post a proper update later tonight, but for now this ramble will do!

 I'm home!

( Holiday! )

 I have been trying to work up the energy to write this post for nearly two whole days now. It was meant to be a New Years Eve thing but what with phone calls and sleeping in and the show I got a bit behind schedule. Then I went out, got home at 2am, and had to work at 9am this morning. My room still has clothes all over it and that has been on my to-do list for a few days now. But I digress. I thought I'd reflect a little on my year and write it down for once, I'm always interested in how things change. This still counts, because it's not the end of New Years Day yet. Right? =D

So here we go.

2010 was the year:

( My year was eventful, apparently )

Wishing you all a happy year to come.
<3
Rdm

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There is a particular type of bush whose scent always reminds me of my Nanna, simply because she had many of them in her front garden. I actually have no clue what type of tree it is at all, but it makes me nostalgic about playing in her yard and the playground near the house, and Grandpa and Nanna spoiling us kids rottten.
<3

Title means: You must return (home).

Considering I was running on about 5 hours of really shitty sleep, today turned out to be a pretty decent day.

( uni, uni, uni )

Let me begin by saying that I love 'Grey's Anatomy'. I really do. I'm one of those people who will watch it until it gets axed, no matter if that's another season or 10. Sometimes, I have no idea why I am so addicted to it. Yes, it can be funny, but it's not a comedy. It's a medical drama - and I'm not so good with blood... It is now so convoluted and soap-opera-esque that sometimes even I (a fan from the very beginning) can't follow it. But sometimes, just sometimes, it just gets it right.

( A clip of a great show, and uni ramblings )

I swore to myself I wouldn't cry this morning. I almost suceeded too.

( (Musings on church) )

I'm glad to say my day got a lot better from there! N came over this afternoon, so we could get organised and pack. Twas fun - and pretty funny because we were both pretty out of it. For example, multiple times I went to do something and would completely lose my train of thought. I think we got everything we wanted to done, so all is good. *grins*
I am so excited. *bounces*

Plus, I bought Love Actually - which I am about to go clean up, and then watch it.
Rdm