rdm_ation

I think the only person who'll read this entire thing is Janna, but I'll post it anyway for future reference ;)
The quiz is here.

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Apart from the random comments about rap and hip hop (I mean, really? what does that have to do with anything?) and a couple of vaguely contradictory points I think this sums me up pretty well.

I had a really good day today - despite the utterly miserable weather. Rained all afternoon and was so cold.
I had another Alexander lesson this morning, and it's awesome that she is in a band with my regular teacher - apparently Andrea told her she was impressed with me last lesson. ALSO she was so encouraging, saying things like 'you are a fantastic player, you just need to stop thinking so much and restricting yourself' - completely matter-of-fact. I've really needed to hear that this past week. I could feel myself playing better as the lesson progressed, and was enjoying myself a LOT more. These lessons are the best decision I've made in a long time.

This afternoon I saw harpisan for the first time in ages, and it was awesome just to hang out. Wandering up and down this cool little street near her place, drank chai lattes (my new addiction) and then admired all kinds of clothes/shoes/random things in awesome shops. Oh and this awesome little indie music store that apparently sells pizza and has gigs etc. Must check those out sometime. I bought Eagle and Worm's album - going to their gig in a couple of weeks so I am excited!

Quick post tonight, I should get back to work but chances are I'm just going to procrastinate some more and then sleep.
Rdm

 I really love this song, but somehow I always forget about it. I should download it, really.

In a related note, I really need to remember the line in my title. If I'm being honest, I am struggling to hold myself together at the moment. My good old distraction techniques work for the most part, but when I actually think about some of the stuff that's going on around me I just get really overwhelmed and upset. Plus, I had a flashback last night to my days at my old school because of a line in a fanfic I read (I never know what will get to me) and so that really doesn't help.

I don't really know what else to say about my week, except that it has been ridiculously up and down at best. snuggle_monster and I had an awesome musical night at my place, even if the musical part of that night was cut rather short. Oh well, we still managed to talk until 5am. Skill, we have them.

I then proceeded to sleep through my alarm, and got pissed off at myself for a number of reasons, and kind of exploded.
snuggle_monster, I'm sorry. I actually just needed to vent, and cry, and your logical and sensible arguments went completely unheeded and I apologise if I bit your head off unreasonably. I scare myself when I get like that, because I literally just don't comprehend reason - instead I am upset for the sake of being upset. Thank goodness I don't get like that often.

I forget that I'm not expected to know what to do at all times.

Anyway, enough of that. I have so much to do but I can hardly get myself to start (let alone finish) anything, what else is new... Procrastination you suck. I just know I'm going to end up winging my Indo oral exam, I just know it. I do have English notes, I just have to look up some key words and I do have all of tomorrow. Panic hasn't set in yet because of that.
I need to practice desperately. Oh, and my violin decided that last night was a brilliant time to start buzzing, 3 weeks out from my exam. Great.
I also have a list of random errands a mile long - most of which involve cash and so have been put 'on hold' as such until I get paid this week. Better be on time of I will throw something. I'm pretty sure I'll be flat broke in about a week or so. Fun times.

OH! In better news, I have my car back!! =D
Freedom is sweet. I won't be taking it for granted again for a while. and driving like a grandma
My Dad is also amazing, and I don't have to pay him back for anything until I get a full time job. So I owe a hell of a lot of money, but it's alright for now.

One last thing, I am turning 21 in less than a month. When did that happen?
My parents have decided that I should have a big party (I was going to go with smaller events, but hey i'm not complaining if they're paying...) so I'm currently trying to work out logistics. Just another method of procrastination.

I really should go now. Really really.
So. Bye. *waves*
Rdm

For the first time ever, I have a clear ambition for my music career.
It's exhilarating. But honestly? It also scares the absolute crap out of me.

It's not a new career idea, really, it's one I've had for a while. It's just always been in a half-hearted 'oh I could do that as well' kind of way. I want to pursue musical theatre pit orchestras. Not just amateur theatre, but professional orchestras.
The light-bulb moment I had in my car this morning (it literally hit me at once, I was stunned actually) was while listening to the Original London Cast recording of The Lion King. I realised that I would be prepared to move indefinitely to London to pursue West End, or to New York for Broadway. For anyone who's heard me talk about living overseas, this is a big deal. A really big deal. I've never actively been able to picture myself moving anywhere indefinitely, and I do think that Melbourne will always be home, but I can see myself doing it. And that's scary.
I have a defined goal. This is kind of a foreign concept to me.

Indo was fine, I got my draft of my assignment back and it was fine! I just have to add a different section, but my language was good, and the topic was sound and so I am so happy. I have all of tomorrow to finish it, and I have most of an English draft now so I am not stressed about it at all.

Then it was home, where sine_animo came over to watch Glee. What can I say? The episode was amazing. Amazing. I want to rewatch it so much right now, but I'm not letting myself. I might do a massive picspam post tomorrow night - but for now suffice to say my afternoon was filled with squeeing and other such incoherent noises. Also, Friday could have been a disaster - I was in utter hysterics. It was probably the funniest number on the show to date. Glee, when you get it right you get it so. damn. right.

Today was the best day I've had in a good while.
Rdm

I seem to have been doing this a lot lately, starting a post with a video of this artist. It's because she is amazing, and this song has cheered me up this morning.


It's so bouncy, I love it! (LOL at Darren's dancing too)
I really want to buy her cds, as well as the Starship cast recording. I don't really want to spend any more money until I've sorted out this car insurance crap (the guy hasn't called me back, odd) although I can probably spare it. I also want to buy an actual copy of Darren Criss' EP. Oh and Adele's album. Um. As you can probably guess, most of my money goes on music.

pebblegosling  just sent me this link, and I can't tell you how refreshing it is to hear someone talk about music like that. I mean, no genre bias, just talking about the music for what it is. One of the many reasons I love this man.

In other news, I am still firmly in denial about how much work I have to do. Like, I know how much there is, I even have a list and it's scarily long, but I can't seem to get myself to start. 
My brain is elsewhere at the moment, and actually, I need distractions more than anything. Perhaps I should go get a massage or something, try to relax. I'll stop this right here before I go around in circles.
Rdm

 

I love that song so much. 

This week has been decidedly weird. There's all the drama with my car, assignments and everything - so naturally I ended up a bit stressed and strung out. A meltdown of sorts was inevitable... but I nearly made it to mid-semester break.
Yesterday I just lost it, because Ame and I had worked hard on our speech for Indo on Sunday, and thought we were good to go. Then, we read the unit guide and got really confused - so, we went and saw our teacher. Who confused us more, and I was so pissed and confused and stressed that we hadn't done it right and just ugh. I panicked, and got really upset - I hadn't done any practice then either, so I was worried about my lesson, and the fact that I had to go to work. We ended up skipping my second Indo class and I went and used the music room near her flat (she lives on campus) to play and make myself feel better. She also gives the most amazing massages, seriously I felt like I could move my shoulders properly for the first time in a long while. <3 Thank you.

Then, I get home last night and was told that one of my great-uncles has passed away. I'm sad, but more because I'm struggling to remember him. It's strange to think that had it been the same relation on my mum's side, I'd be devastated but because it's on Dad's and we really don't see them much I'm not. Sending my love out to the family though.

And that brings me to now. Still procrastinating fixing this speech and doing the powerpoint (even though it's tomorrow eek) and wondering just where time goes on Tuesday mornings. I'll work it out, but for now I'll leave this here.
Rdm

PS. It sounds strange because I do see them a bit, but I miss my friends. As in, I miss spending decent amounts of time just hanging out. 

 Let's see if I can actually make this a quick post for once - I have to get back to work.

I've had a pretty good couple of days, actually - despite the studying. Friday was my usual day at uni, with one exception of a longer music lecture to make up for the ones that got cancelled. I had to skip Indo for it, but it's alright because I have an assignment on the topic covered so I did need to go. Work was pretty uneventful (unlike last week thank goodness), and then I pretty much just wasted my night. I did a little study, but not terribly much.

Yesterday morning it was the teaching job, and I know my life's hectic when I think 'oh I only have to leave at 8am, that's not too early' ...
I'm always a bit 'meh' about actually going to work on Saturdays, but I'm so happy I finally have a job where my mood improves once I'm there. Teaching is so much fun! =D

I decided sometime during my shift to go visit snuggle_monster, just because I could. We ended up chatting for about an hour, about everything and nothing (like usual) which was good. I don't see her nearly as often at uni as I'd like.
Including about exchanges and going overseas in general. All of this got me thinking about how much can change in a year. The Jezabels gig we went to on Wednesday night was almost exactly a year to the date of the Newton Faulkner gig, which was the first time we hung out properly. I also ended up spilling some very personal experiences of mine that night - being ridiculously open even for me. Thinking back now, that was an insane reaction to my gut instinct that we were going to become great friends. Obviously I just knew, but I really did have no idea just how close we'd get.
So much about myself, my friendships and my life has changed, mostly for the better. It was one of those moments where everything was just clear, and I was perfectly happy despite the stress of uni work, and reminded me that even if I don't get my way, there is always something better than can happen.

Once I'd gone out to my car to head home (reluctantly) so I could study, while I was choosing music, she appeared again. Scared the crap out of me, but then she just says 'I wanted another hug - and to tell you that I may not say it enough but I love you.' That completely made my afternoon.

The drive home took forever, what with roadworks and the rain, but I was listening to Newton Faulkner and an hour of that can make me ready to face anything. Unfortunately, when I got home my brain was so not with my work. My tweets from last night/this morning will give you an idea of my success rate.
Although, now, I have 900ish words of this English essay – which is pretty close. It’s only a rough draft, but it’s better than what I had!

The rest of today was awesome. I went to the Disney exhibition with harpisan, and it was incredible. So many pretty drawings, all the story-boarding was amazing. Just, wow. LOVE LOVE LOVE.
We also just got to hang out and talk for the first time in far too long. I am a happy Lauren right now.
I then ended up buying the soundtrack to ‘The Princess and the Frog’ because looking at all the stuff for it and just really wanted the music. So I thought, why the hell not? Love the music in that movie, it’s just fun. Listening now, in fact.

I got home just in time to discover that I’d completely forgotten about my Grandma’s birthday dinner. So that kind of threw my plans of finsihing that draft… I came home early though.
I love my family. We’re loud, and insane, but I love it. I ended up talking about Glee with my older, tough-guy cousin about Glee. For half an hour. He downloads it as the episodes come out – and is not ashamed to like it. Totally made my night.

On that note, I’d really better get going on these assignments. I will either be posting a lot this week (as procrastination) or not at all. We’ll see. For now, good night!
Rdm

I've had a great few days, which I will outline in a minute, but right now my productive and good mood has been sucked away by Victoria Jackson and her idiocy. I'm not going to rant again, but have a look at this post (side note, I got tumblr - doomed I am) and you'll see why.

I've actually been really productive the past few days, practicing well, actually studying in my breaks, orchestra was good - I even came home from rehearsal last night and did more practice. Teaching was great on Monday despite having no breaks at all. 
Oh! I played in string class and it was really encouraging - it's always nice to hear that I'm improving.
Let me see, what else. I finally finished a (rough/out of order) first draft of my English assignment, which I have been procrastinating typing up for about 2 hours now (fanfic ftw).

Wow this entry is all over the place. Right. Today.
I decided that sleep was more important than my 9am class, as I just wasn't awake and alert enough anyway. I stayed up too late last night, it was one of those ones where I looked at my clock after what felt like 30 minutes and it had been hours...
Then, it was off to my lesson - which was really good. This whole planning practice thing is so great. I must keep this up.
After that, I headed into the city to meet harpisan. It was great to see her, even if it was only for an hour. THEN I called sine_animo and we hung out, pebblegosling even joined us for a little while. And snuggle_monster called us and was put on speakerphone because she felt left out. We all need to hang out before you go, pebblegosling... Although our brains may all explode.
The look on sine_animo's face when the other two were on the phone was utterly priceless. TOLD YOU SO.

All of that aside, I got more work done on the train home on this English thing than I did last night. Strange.

Tomorrow I'm going in to uni when I have no classes so I can study. Today I skipped my class at uni... I think I'm doing this backwards. Hopefully I'll be able to hang out with snuggle_monster and Ame as well - I haven't seen them nearly as much as I'd like so far at uni this year.

With that, I bid you farewell.
Rdm 

 Man, Darren Criss singing Baby One More Time is just as epic as I thought it would be. I'm grinning like an idiot here... NOSTALGIAAAAA
XD
that album may or may not have been the first cd I ever bought

*goes back to writing notes*

( Warning: This post is full of flail. Really random flail. )

Anyway, I've recovered from the panic of my last post. I ended up skipping the Indo class on Friday morning, just because I couldn't face speaking in front of people. I was so tired, so run down, I hadn't done the preparation. You know it's bad when skipping a class makes me feel better.
I've now done most of the things on that list, and made a conscious decision not to do others.
Let me see, what else has been going on...

My shift at work on Friday was the first one with my new boss. It was ... interesting. I'll go with interesting. It wasn't great, but I'm hoping we'll all settle in soon. Fingers crossed some of the more pointless procedures get dumped quickly.

Saturday I taught during the day, as always, and it was the first shift I've been properly awake for in a little while. Which makes it so much more fun. It took me an hour and a half to finally get home, running errands that I was meant to get done on Thursday but the universe wasn't having any of that. 
I then proceeded to stay home, pretty tired, and study/stalk people's tumblrs and then eventually chat to sine_animo.
My brother had a fair few of his friends around for a barbeque for his 18th birthday, and at one point I paused my music and just started laughing to myself. He got some really good new speakers as a present from someone, and so the music was blasting. Normal 18th, right? Wrong. The music blasting was Glee. SO MUCH APPROVAL. I have a feeling it was his gf who hijacked the music, BUT it was from his ipod. So. *laughs*

Today, I woke up at 9am, felt pretty awake and was actually going to get up (insane considering I was up until 2am last night) but then managed to fall asleep until 11am, got woken by a phone call from work and so forcing myself to wake up that fast made me feel so disoriented. Then ended up having a headache and actually feeling really shaky and just plain ill. Thankfully that didn't last too long.

This afternoon has been pretty productive, apart from practice being an utter fail. This week's been pretty bad - hoping to get some good practice done tomorrow and Tuesday before my lesson on Wednesday.

( That's right, there's more. )
Rdm

Ahh I do love movie nights - and last night was no exception. Awesome friends (incidentally the two that have lj) some damn good movies, and a decent amount of food make for loads of fun. So, anyway, the 'reason' (like we actually need one) for this get-together was Valentine's Day. Strange? No way. We figured that we're all single, and would be bored, and thought that chick flicks and musicals and Disney was a brilliant plan. And let's not forget aww-ing at the awkward cuteness of Gordo from Lizzie McGuire. He's so adorable!
We're so cool.

Aladdin: Do I even need to say anything? It's so awesome. Robin Williams = sheer genius. And Iago. XD

Spirited Away: Very interesting. Kind of trippy at points, but I did enjoy it. Once I got my head around it, of course.

Rent: A musical that I desperately want to see in the theatre. I do love the music in it, naturally, but there is also just something about the film itself. I always get shivers down my spine at certain moments - like during the support group scenes. It makes me step back and remember what is really important to me. I will always love movies/musicals/music that does that.


Right now I'm procrastinating practicing, and researching laptops. I've decided that this one's nearly had it's run. Especially now that pebblegosling has pointed out how incredibly tiny my hard drive is... I'm also hopeful that I can save enough money fairly quickly - considering how much I saved last year =)

I'll be off now, to try to get some practice done before my teacher assignment lesson tomorrow - and possibly even do some Indonesian study before my placement test.
Bye!

Apologies in advance, this post isn't going to make much (if any) sense to anyone but harpisan

So, apparently we've officially finished classes. Where on earth did this year go? I swear, they keep going faster and faster. (I know, I sound like an old woman) Now it's headlong into study, practice, ensemble rehearsals, and more practice.

Our classes today pretty much summed up the year - in more ways than one. There is the obvious revision/speed learning for the exams - but there were also some great calls. Particularly by vocalist J, who manages to crack us all up. It's not that she says things that are entirely original (although they can be) but she has a great sense of comic timing, and phrasing. So funny.
(her rendition of the song featured in my title is gold - check out the original here though http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=xKZR3Bcj4jw)

Two classic calls made today by J.

J: If I get sick, I am going to kill something.
S: Can we offer suggestions of people for you to kill? Say, J?
J: *thinks* No, the world deserves to be subjected to him.

G: No one speaks German? Really?
J: That surprises you *every* time!
G: *laughs for 5 minutes straight*

It's about time he actually noticed that he asks some variant of that every class =P

He came up with some gems today too.
'They do street shows, and people watch, and throw buttons at them'
'We're going to listen to 'Verklarte Nacht' today. I want to prove that this guy could actually compose.' (the closest thing we'll ever get to him admitting he doesn't like a form of classical music)

Accidentally apt description of the day: 'mindless understanding'
*chuckles* It works on so many levels.

AND one last random thing, *sings*
HEY MICKEY...
http://xkcd.com/193/
I love that website. Seriously. The 'mouse-over' text made my day.
Now I have a strange desire to watch 'Bring It On' again. Tehehe. Thanks facebook mum.

I must be off now, considering it's 10:30 and I haven't actually done any work. In theory that should be easier without my laptop - but in reality I just hog the home computer. *sigh*
Bye!