'Life is beautiful, but it's complicated'

My life revolves around music. If you know me, and haven't realised that, you don't know me at all.

Sometimes, songs simply remind me to enjoy life - while I'm here. This one, for example.

Life is beautiful

But it's complicated, we barely make it
We don't need to understand

There are miracles, miracles
 

I overcomplicate things. Why do I have to understand every little thing that I feel? I can't explain that - but I know I have to let some things go. Or I will just make myself unhappy, that's no-one's doing but my own. I spend so much of my life confused and frustrated, but I am always grateful for the days that make me realise exactly what I want, and what I truly care about. One of those moments was when I woke up on Wednesday, and I wasn't nervous at all for my recital. I was just excited. I had the thought 'wow I might just be able to actually do this for a living'. Hope is a wonderful thing. Another was yesterday. It was great to just hang out with all the repetoire people from uni without having to rush off for this rehearsal or that class. Eating way too much food, dancing, cartwheeling, climbing trees (ok so I didn't personally do those last two - I just videoed and took photos), chatting about next year, singing songs from musicals/parodies at the top of our lungs, or just lying on the grass. I just sat back and soaked the atmosphere in - all the while thinking 'this is the life'. Next year I am going to try to do it more often - it's a good way to let go of all the stress of studying.

I'm going to finish up there - it's enough thinking for someone who worked a 9 hour shift. Perhaps I'll go and try to write more of my short story. Not sure how good it will be, as I haven't planned it out at all. I'll post it when I'm done.
Rdm