Brain not even functioning

I hate aural. I hate it I hate it I hate it.

I should be able to do this. I got an A for my music performance aural paper in year 12, I got a freaking 90 last year for aural, so why am I not getting this? It's seriously pissing me off right now. To the point that I ended up bursting into tears in class and embarrassing myself yet again. Sure, I haven't done that much work on it this semester, but I did work on it this past week when I realised I wouldn't pass if I kept this up. I didn't gain one extra mark today. In fact I lost a few. WHAT THE FUCK?!? I'm at a loss as to what I can do in 2 days. Fuck. It's counted towards chief prac to, just to make matters worse. I came home a little while ago, and thought that I wasn't going to let it beat me - and started on intervals right away. Which just made me feel worse because I was missing really really easy ones.
Also, the melodic dictations are ones I should be getting easily. Maybe if he'd just pause for a fucking second or two between playings my brain would have time to process it. Ironically, the only things I'm doing ok at are modes. Go fucking figure.

My to-do list for tonight is now bordering on ridiculous. Aural, cram for ethnomusicology tomorrow, practice, teach my little piano student, possibly cook dinner (hopefully I can weasel out of that one) try to learn some Indo vocab for my exam next week, and y'know, actually sleep properly. I have been so tired and sleepy all weekend, but as soon as I tried to go to bed last night I was totally awake. I only got 5 hours of really dodgy sleep - which probably didn't help my mood today. Thank god at least Music History is out of the way now.

*breathes*

Alright. I'm going to calm down now.
Rdm