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rdm_ationWhat is it with me and stress that means I can't control my emotions? Far out. It's not even that I'm feeling all that bad, more that there are a few niggling worries, and stupid things make me lose it. Why must stress = tears? I don't understand. It doesn't fucking help.
1. I have to drive like a nanna now, I would actually lose my licence if my Dad wasn't so awesome. Having said that, I feel so bad about it. =(
2. I'm stressed about money for Italy. See above point - $450 worth of fines will really put a dent in my savings (which weren't so crash hot to begin with). Also, after this whole thing with these tickets, I feel shocking for asking for the money from my parents. I don't actually know if I can go or not yet, another thing that is actually getting to me. I'm considering just saying 'screw it' and going in 3rd year. That's how much I'm over all the stress.
3. I hate the way these orchestra assessments are run. Especially this time, it's so much to learn, and they only let us know the 'excerpts' a week in advance. Thanks, music department. I put excerpts in quotation marks because all we got told was that we have to play all the tuttis in the concerti, and all of Pomp and Circumstance. I get that we need to be able to play all of it for the concert, but seriously - to get that to a solo standard NOT on my preferred instrument? Yeah I've really got to actually get the 3 hours a day in to have any chance. *mutters*
4. Gamelan performance assessment is next week. We are nowhere near ready, and basically have tomorrow to practice. Eek!
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harpisan something shocking. That sounds stupid, but I don't care. Continuously hitting walls when it comes to trying to meet up with her is what set me off just then.
I was doing so well at just being happy, too.
Even just writing that helped, I'm a bit calmer now. And, aside from all of those things niggling under the surface, I've actually had a pretty awesome few days. Strange how that works sometimes...
Monday was the standard morning lectures, skipping theory, got totally lost in jazz-speak in aural (most of which seems to be 'it did doo doo doo daa doo' no joke) and then hung out withsnuggle_monster and thalia03 which is always awesome, but especially when we end up in hysterics over the stupidest things. For instance, at one point snuggle_monster goes 'There's a pigeon' but for some reason I thought she said 'There's a beauty' - don't ask me how. As if that wasn't funny enough, I then couldn't decide whether what she said or what I thought she said was funnier. XD There were other misheard comments that made for very funny moments, but they involve names and as such won't make sense with my system of abbreviations.
Yesterday could've been shocking as I woke up with a headache, but it was actually ok. Except that I went to the dentist and found out I need a filling, and that my wisdom teeth are showing up. Let's hope they don't need to be taken out.
Oh, and I got nearly 2 hours of practice done. =D
Today was more practice this morning, my lesson (thank goodness my teacher has played the viola before and so could actually help me get a better sound), and then Indo. Which, as always, was awesome. Bu Y was on a grammar warpath - and came out with such gems as 'Translation is a fantasy - it doesn't exist'. Bahaha! Trying to encourage us to guess based on grammar forms, and not rely on dictionaries so much. I'd also missed chilling with Ame, which I got to do after class. Even if our conversation was a kind of rant about uni and future plans (or lack thereof, more particularly).
Oh and you can add 'must catch up with Indo tonight' to that list. So off I go.
Rdm
1. I have to drive like a nanna now, I would actually lose my licence if my Dad wasn't so awesome. Having said that, I feel so bad about it. =(
2. I'm stressed about money for Italy. See above point - $450 worth of fines will really put a dent in my savings (which weren't so crash hot to begin with). Also, after this whole thing with these tickets, I feel shocking for asking for the money from my parents. I don't actually know if I can go or not yet, another thing that is actually getting to me. I'm considering just saying 'screw it' and going in 3rd year. That's how much I'm over all the stress.
3. I hate the way these orchestra assessments are run. Especially this time, it's so much to learn, and they only let us know the 'excerpts' a week in advance. Thanks, music department. I put excerpts in quotation marks because all we got told was that we have to play all the tuttis in the concerti, and all of Pomp and Circumstance. I get that we need to be able to play all of it for the concert, but seriously - to get that to a solo standard NOT on my preferred instrument? Yeah I've really got to actually get the 3 hours a day in to have any chance. *mutters*
4. Gamelan performance assessment is next week. We are nowhere near ready, and basically have tomorrow to practice. Eek!
5. I miss
harpisan something shocking. That sounds stupid, but I don't care. Continuously hitting walls when it comes to trying to meet up with her is what set me off just then.I was doing so well at just being happy, too.
Even just writing that helped, I'm a bit calmer now. And, aside from all of those things niggling under the surface, I've actually had a pretty awesome few days. Strange how that works sometimes...
Monday was the standard morning lectures, skipping theory, got totally lost in jazz-speak in aural (most of which seems to be 'it did doo doo doo daa doo' no joke) and then hung out with
snuggle_monster and thalia03 which is always awesome, but especially when we end up in hysterics over the stupidest things. For instance, at one point snuggle_monster goes 'There's a pigeon' but for some reason I thought she said 'There's a beauty' - don't ask me how. As if that wasn't funny enough, I then couldn't decide whether what she said or what I thought she said was funnier. XD There were other misheard comments that made for very funny moments, but they involve names and as such won't make sense with my system of abbreviations. Yesterday could've been shocking as I woke up with a headache, but it was actually ok. Except that I went to the dentist and found out I need a filling, and that my wisdom teeth are showing up. Let's hope they don't need to be taken out.
Oh, and I got nearly 2 hours of practice done. =D
Today was more practice this morning, my lesson (thank goodness my teacher has played the viola before and so could actually help me get a better sound), and then Indo. Which, as always, was awesome. Bu Y was on a grammar warpath - and came out with such gems as 'Translation is a fantasy - it doesn't exist'. Bahaha! Trying to encourage us to guess based on grammar forms, and not rely on dictionaries so much. I'd also missed chilling with Ame, which I got to do after class. Even if our conversation was a kind of rant about uni and future plans (or lack thereof, more particularly).
Oh and you can add 'must catch up with Indo tonight' to that list. So off I go.
Rdm
