'These things will change'
Jul. 9th, 2009 07:16 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
rdm_ationWell here I go.
Currently, I am contemplating how life happens such that the best possible events are interspersed with the worst. Over these past few weeks I have been on holidays, and enjoying every minute I spend with old friends, new friends, even newer friends - heck even work has been pretty fun (for the most part :P). I'm also looking forward to going back to uni, going out to musicals and concerts in the next few weeks. There is just one thing that I am struggling with at the moment, and as always it is a decision that I've had to make.
I hate these kinds of decisions. The ones where both options are just as painful, and so it was just all too hard. But as someone wise said to me "moving on will make no difference, but put you in a better place" No it wasn't the Wizard of Oz....although it would explain a lot! Anyway, you may be wondering what on earth I am talking about by now. As of Sunday, I no longer go to the Northcote Salvation Army, or indeed the Salvation Army in general. It's kind of hard to explain why, but I guess I'll put it like this. I was drifting, and drifting away from the church itself. I still believe, but it's hard to function properly within a group that does care, but can't connect with me as they once did. I can see I need to start again, but it's still hard to let go of 19 years of history. Change petrifies me. It's only slightly easier when I instigate it. But I will manage, I always have.
On other matters, I am very much looking forward to this weekend. Parties for two very awesome people, and hanging with another very special one =) And then....I go back to uni! Ta-da.
Bye bye
Currently, I am contemplating how life happens such that the best possible events are interspersed with the worst. Over these past few weeks I have been on holidays, and enjoying every minute I spend with old friends, new friends, even newer friends - heck even work has been pretty fun (for the most part :P). I'm also looking forward to going back to uni, going out to musicals and concerts in the next few weeks. There is just one thing that I am struggling with at the moment, and as always it is a decision that I've had to make.
I hate these kinds of decisions. The ones where both options are just as painful, and so it was just all too hard. But as someone wise said to me "moving on will make no difference, but put you in a better place" No it wasn't the Wizard of Oz....although it would explain a lot! Anyway, you may be wondering what on earth I am talking about by now. As of Sunday, I no longer go to the Northcote Salvation Army, or indeed the Salvation Army in general. It's kind of hard to explain why, but I guess I'll put it like this. I was drifting, and drifting away from the church itself. I still believe, but it's hard to function properly within a group that does care, but can't connect with me as they once did. I can see I need to start again, but it's still hard to let go of 19 years of history. Change petrifies me. It's only slightly easier when I instigate it. But I will manage, I always have.
On other matters, I am very much looking forward to this weekend. Parties for two very awesome people, and hanging with another very special one =) And then....I go back to uni! Ta-da.
Bye bye
